I wish I was fucking dead

I wish I was fucking dead
said the sad cunt to his self
whilst blowing several trumpets
and rather being someone else

some other place, some other time
all expectations, get in line
what's this, what's that, what have they said
I wish I was fucking dead

what will they think, what will they say
it'll be OK but not today
relentless arguments in my head
I wish I was fucking dead

divorced from life married to strife
if hell were a person I'd take a wife
at least I'd be "normal" at least I'd be fed
I wish I was fucking dead

something completely fucking rotten
lost, abandoned but not forgotten
has gone and gotten in my head
I wish I was fucking dead

and amidst all this confusion
come inadequate delusions
grandeur, pander to it, meds?
I wish I was fucking dead

act like you're a proper person
like your problems cannot worsen
f*ck it all and just lie in bed
I wish I was fucking dead

make excuses, self abuse it
have your doubts but then accuse it
when all is done, when all is said
I wish I was fucking dead