FOR YOU

Some days are good
Some days I struggle
and then there are other days...
I start to have some Hope that
I'm going to get through it and
I manage to put a smile on my face...

Unexpectedly the most random thing
triggers some of my
most cherished memories-
but it doesn't bring a euphoric High
like it did before...

instead that breath of Hope
starts to choke me and instantly
fills me with guilt and self-doubt...
my heart starts to sink
as I succumb  to the  overwhelming
Sadness that slowly drowns me...

every part of me wants to call you
looking for that calm
 only you could bring me-
 but I have to settle with
reading old messages
that only confirms the
Undying love we shared...

I am Frozen in Time
for what seems like an eternity as
I am forced to relive that exact moment
when my entire world completely changed-
my soul was crushed
and you were gone forever...

You were always the stronger one
trying to keep yourself together
 so I can be the emotional Train wreck-
Now it's my turn to be strong...
not only for the kids and for myself
but for you!