Sometimes

Sometimes "I" attach
"I" want
"I" crave
"I" desire

And "I" don't know why

This feeling of being at odds with myself, "I" hate it : Because "I" feel like "I" shouldn't FEEL this way

"I" should be more than my emotions
my wants
my desires
my feelings

That "I" should be more than human
better than human
stronger than human

Sometimes "I" feel as though "I" shouldn't be at all
Sometimes "I" feel as though "I" shouldn't exist
shouldn't have been born

Should have never been the twinkle in my father's eye
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

Why do all this?

Sometimes "I" plead with God, and in return he gives me no answer
Most times, the answer is there in my heart
All times, actually

"I" don't like the answers

Sometimes "I" hate God
hate Love
hate awareness
hate consciousness
hate
"I"     hate

"I"

All of my problems come from "I"

Sometimes "I" escape "I"
Other times
"I" feel like how "I" feel now
The reason "I" write this

Sometimes...