Nineteenth

I'm nearing nineteen
What did I achieve?
I don't know what to do
Did I ever do something?
Something for myself
Something for everyone around me

The clock is ticking
I'm getting anxious.
I'm a child no more,
Can I stand on my own?

What can I do?
How?
When?
These questions are always in my mind.
Thinking about these,
I'm getting anxious

I'm nearing adulthood
I don't know what path will I take
Unsure of the future
Scared of what it might bring.
At the same time,
I'm excited.

Imagining.
Can I look good with my future uniform?
Can I do my best in my future job?

Browsing on social media,
I have seen my peers getting a job.
If not a job, they did well in school.
They have talents and businesses.
While me?
I don't know.

I thought I'm good with some things.
I got praised and appreciated.
But
As I'm nearing nineteen,
I realized something.

In this world,
You will not always be the best.
There is always someone better than you.
But it does not matter.
What matter is how you think.
How can you handle things.
As long as we believe in ourselves.
We can achieve something.
It might be small,
But
Remember,
Big things are achieved little by little.

I'm nearing nineteen,
I hope I could be something.