Feeling strange

Something’s gotta change..
I can feel it coming back this way!
I don’t think you should stay.
Because lately I’ve been feeling strange…
I try to stay away from fake.
But it always merges, try’s to enter my lane…
Now I’m swerving in and out of traffic,
They got me on a high speed chase!
I hate playing these games!
Recently I’ve been feeling like a runaway train..
I’m going at a fast pace..
But the devil always finds me,
And spits in my face…
I’m in pain with bloody leaking veins..
My memory is getting harder to maintain..
Sometimes I can barely remember my name!
I had to walk out in the rain,
Cause I was getting burnt by the flames!
My energy is drained..
My body feels like I’m locked in chains…
This is hard to explain!
I just need to get away!
I’m losing my grip on life, running in place!
I’m badly losing this race….
I think I’m going insane!
Who am I to blame?
See, I went through these phases..
Everybody thought I randomly went crazy…
I was being attacked by all different ways!
Pretty much helpless and scared,
I couldn’t get away!
Next thing I knew,
Everyone started changing!
Not a single soul asked if I was okay…
I called and texted all my close friends!
They all said they were to busy that day..
Then the next day and next day..
It was like it wouldn’t end..
From Monday to Sunday!
I’m almost positive it was the devil,
Wanting something from me..
But what? I felt stuck..
Trapped in a maze!
I don’t know what he wants…
But it’s fucked up because I had no-one,
I started to like his company…..
Somehow I made it out that funk!
And I thought I got released and was free!
I moved to a different town thinking,
I should be okay…
So I was taking it slowly!
Hoping and praying,
That shit never happens again…
Until it did and now we’re here,
I feel unsafe!!
But this time I’m not as scared of his face!
I'm going to attempt to slay him!!!
Lacing up my Js..
If I complete the job, he’ll get displayed!
On the biggest stage,
So people can stop thinking I’m crazy!!
Friends and fam can stop being shady!
Hopefully, I’ll be at peace again maybe….