Pain and pleasure

My heart aches but it’s a treasure
My face buried in the shadow yet I can breathe
Nothing waiting patiently for me
Yet ill run - picks a time and leave it all behind
 
 
This is the journey back home
This was where I was created
Being here has been so much pain
Is this what it was all supposed to be
But I won’t complain
I can’t
 
 
 
You’re not a voice just a ring in my ear
What do you want now that I’m awake?
Love me?
Maybe this is just a dream
I don’t deserve your love
I don’t deserve anything
 
 
This Pain and pleasure
Every conversation starts with you screaming
Today I hear you’re beeping
Today I shall stay awake
So not today
Love, Thomas