I know

I have lost against life;
don't know what to say,
I know that a knife
won't let me stay away

I've lost!
I know that it's my fault;
that I don't do anything;
to break the frost

I fear the future,
and also ghosts of the past;
Also I sit at the present
thinking about my life's last

I had some friends; now no more,
I didn't care; now much more,
I didn't know the value of life; now is the same,
Maybe I know but I refuse to obey

                                                             ~ Sakshi Kumari