Destined To Be Unloved

To open your heart and mind…
To try to find salvation and break loneliness.
Become unfulfilled dream of my living.
Become a weeping scream from far away darkness
I found myself living in.

Why God does not hear my cry?
Why does not he hear cry all of us?
Are not we all his children?
I wonder who’s sins I am paying to live this life?
Life of hurt, abandonment and one where
I am so unloved?

I am praying and my faith is born.
Still, there are moments I ask myself:
Whose decision is this for me to live this life?
Is there light for this dark life I am living?
Is there light of hope for a millions of people
Who are living life same as mine?

After all, what am I and all of us are?
Only grain of sand in infinity of sand.
Only grain of sand in desert dune.
We are all destined to get lost in infinity of time.
This is what all of us are?

Each of us have destiny of own.
Maybe our lives are not God’s decision after all.
However, we need faith to find meaning of our life or living.
If I only could find answer why my mother never loved me?
If I could find answer on this same as I found faith?
Then when is time for me to die I could die in peace
Without any questions on my mind.