Just Being Alright

So...What do you call it.....
When you don't feel like talking to people,
And you want to stay in just one single room.
When the sunray falling overhead fails to reach your soul,
And the soothing night breeze doesn't calm your body.
When the whole day seems extra long,
And the darkness around comforts you like a song.
When you give strength to someone and fight your fears every second,
And you want to cry but keep smiling for reasons not existent.
When numerous emotions shriek inside your poor heart,
And all you do is just bottle up your feelings and let them die.
When you want to be alone with no one to look for you
And at the same time you are too sacred of yourself
When loneliness gives you a shell to be in
And having no one to check on you hurts you
What do you call it....How do you define it?
When you talk about self love and kind of hate yourself
And you want to share but end up saying..."I'm alright"