I never meant for this to happen

I knew you were the one.
As a teenager I was certain
But our differences came between us.
Such pain and agony while wondering
How you could walk away so easy.
It took years to accept you were lost to me.
I thought I moved on years later,
Only after being in a long term relationship.
7 years until I felt no pain
When I thought of you.
14 years and you still crossed my mind,
Wondering how you were.
Then, an epiphany I had.
I saw my abuser for what he is,
I saw what I was worth and what I deserve.
I grew strong. I worked hard.
I left the wicked manipulation, and messaged you.
The instant click. The instant trust. The immediate relief at an easy conversation.
You learned similar lessons from a similarly abusive marriage.
Your repercussions are massive though and I hate the pain life causes you.
A breath of fresh winter air in a meadow frosted in snow.
Breathing life into my battered and shredded heart.
You understood my pains, my feelings, my desires.
You didn't judge me in the least and I could taste the authenticity.
You are a genuine individual authentically true to who you want to be.
I could drown in the depth of my feelings toward you.
I would do anything to have you by my side.
I fear being hurt. Everyone always ends up breaking my fragile heart.
You though, you genuinely don't want to hurt me. I can intuit it. I know in my bones.
You see the beautiful sides of me and thats enough.
There's no need to immediately confront the flaws.
I want to just enjoy your warmth and slowly build a bed of embers to keep our love alive.