I Can Never win

I can never win.

What's the sense of speaking, when I'm just wasting wind?
The worst mistake that I ever did in my life was to go backward and allow people that exist in my life the ability to enter back in.
I allowed the same person that broke me down, laughed at me, and constantly get high with the mistakes that I made.
Like they have to live with demons and the choices that I make.
It doesn’t matter what I do I can never win.
I know where I want to go and I know where I want to be because if nobody believes in me, I will believe in myself.
 when I was alone, I had nobody but I will rather be alone than feeling lonely.
If you’re going to laugh at me and constantly call me out my name,
you better be prepared for the karma that’s about to head your way.  
I was a broken puzzle trying to find the missing piece so I can finally be complete.  But instead, you enter my life and ruin my peace. I will never win because instead of moving forward I’m looking backward and allowing negative people in my life that’s preventing me from winning because I’m so busy daydreaming and stagnating.