Not a Know it All

I cant take it anymore I need peace.
My heart is heavy and I need release.

There are good times but the bad out ways it and I dont fking deserve that.
You wonder why I fade away talk on the web to other dudes..
You only see me as the problem and it puts me in a mood.

Know that YOU ARE TO BLAME FOR EVERY ONE OF MY ACTIONS.
If you treated me good I would steer away from any e-dude no cappin.
You think you know it all but you fucking just dont.
Put the liquor down, slick your hair back and be responsible, I think that's hot but you'll never do it, u wont

I have to deal with all of this and more,
You don't wanna take a tour in my fucked up head.
Your eyes would bleed, you'll vomit and end up dead.
You cant  handle the power in the darkness I harness.
It would burn your heart crispy in a furnace .

Theres no beauty when all you see is a box and a bed.
I just turn red.
Staying in my room all day, playing the pc because no one understands.
Canceling any of my plans.

Laying in my bed sleepin.
Life playing in my head repeating.
I swear my hairline is receding.
I used to be on top but now I'm defeated.
Defeated mentally, physically and sure as f*ck emotionally.
I'm done feeling this way.
All I wanna do is end the day.
Wake up rinse and repeat.
All because you had to show me my defeat.