My dog

Oh how I wish you were here
And how I miss you everyday
Your loss was my biggest fear
This pain will never go away.
          
My best friend you were so loyal and kind    
My Protector, My Copilot, My Sunshine,
And always My Biggest Fan..
A Gift from God ..A True Companion.

And Now my sweet Angel you’ll always be.
Still your loss has taken a toll on me.


My heart is now broken.
Letting you go was never the plan.
Every decision i made,
I hope you understand.
For Every vet visit we made was a disagreement.
And still you trusted me with 100 percent  
Now Lead to the day May 27th

Decisions of guilt keep ahold of me.   
Like this weakness I feel by force I feed.
What when where and how?
 With a blink of an eye.
Just like that
Time will soon pass you by.

Consumed by this Emptiness now it’s my enemy
and now every moment with you is just a memory.
Some days.. I can bare some I can’t breathe
It’s the purest Kind of Love and your loyalty  That’s created a bond only some can see.

Draining myself the more I weep
A hole And I’m
Drownding it’s so deep
This loss it’s not real no it can’t be..
but you were so pale that it killed me
and the pain that you felt no I can’t see.
Still panting as you stared right at me. Refusing to go you were not weak.
Slowly loosing control it’s not in me.
Praying you float but we both sink
They said it was time that you go now I cant think
 And now the day has come that’s been haunting me. In my arms you took your last heart beat.
    Now You are gone no more suffering
You went through enough your love left pending
everything so rough never ending
Now It’s my turn to comprehend your pain
 Forever I will suffer the loss of MaryJane.