inside my mind

I turn around and press my head on the pillows.
Tears stream down my face as I’m trying to keep my pitiful screams inside my head
How can I hurt this much, when my body is healthy and fine
No one ever told me about it. The mental pain that slowly eats your brain
The body aches it gives you, even when you’re not at your lowest
I’m exhausted, but I can’t sleep. Sometimes I can’t even cry
I dream of death when it hurts
Eternal well-being and happiness
How do I lose the feeling of happiness, but feel all this pain?
I don’t want to feel anymore
I want to fall into a tunnel
And disappear.