nobody be me

   jest express'n my mind, i do not like meself. it'z been a unknown length of decades i've been in this state of mind. funny how i used drink and drugs as tx to soften this state of Being. my Being i define as nobody. i'm nobody is my true Being. my new psychiatrist gave me prescription of prozac 20mg q day. say'n that will help put positive likes/wants into nobody feelings. I filled prescription and took my first dose Monday. Wednesday i bumped it up to 40mg a day. it's thursday and again swallowed 2 20mg capsules. funny 4 days and nobody still nobody. thoughts of not being nobody still enter my mind................. nobody scared, endless black hole of despair and sadness, lost. pain in my soul. my bottom lip is stiffing and eyes fill'n with tears..... and typing it as it flows into nothingness.........