2am Entries (#2 of #21)

•Study Tune (Song to read Entry along with): Adjacent Heart by Obongjayar•

I will be writing a 21 series note on my progress from this state now that I’m fully entranced by your beauty and can’t seem to get rid of this love for you until the point where I’m fully done with it. Completely finished of my emotions and run out of patience from waiting so long for you to want me back.

For the longest time now I have tried to tell myself to feign getting over you by making it seem that I’m unaffected by your traps, the various little video snippets or “snaps” I see you post on your timeline. All in the bid to make you want me by making it seem like I don’t want you.

***scoffs***
What utter foolishness
***shakes my head as I die from cringe***

It looks like life is trying to show me things, trying to teach me some lessons on matters of the heart, but I’m completely blind to them; or rather I see the signs but I’m not wise enough to decipher their knowledge and lessons. Maybe by the next entry or as I would hope it is, the infamous “3rd time’s the Charm”. But why would I need 21 series you would wonder?