Unpleasant

I never thought that I would end like this again,
I am aware of the thoughts that’s creepin’ out in my head,
I was like sleeping late night in bed
Weeping in tears and loving the pain.

You were my first after those years,
I have told you stories that you most likely to hear,
But I am here alone -
Spending nights and you’re away.

Oh! Pain, pain, pain,
Please give me permission
To be free from this shadows,
Be like a memory,
That may be hard to forget
But turns into dust.

This thing is not an ordinary to me
I have gone through this
Someday I will get past to this,
Maybe not now, I know sooner.