Mixed Feelings

I don't think I've ever known myself  
Who am I, where am I?
Sometimes I feel like dying
Sometimes I feel like I’m born again
These thoughts inside my head eat me up from time to time

I just wanna feel normal, feel happy, feel the way I shined through the light
Will I ever get myself back or this is just really me?
Those sleepless nights, all those fights in my head.
I craved love and attention, wishing to have someone to hold on
Got a new best friend now and she left

Tears rolling from my eyes
Trying to hide it from everyone
Consoling the lonely spirits
Imaging things that will never happen
These mixed feelings are nothing but just a thought in my head.