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Am I Crazy to Need This Pain to Live? (MAJOR TW for su!c!de and self-injury)

I need this pain,
I want this pain.
I love this pain,
I relish this pain,
This hurtful physical pain.
It’s a need to go on,
It’s a need to stay strong,
This bleeding outer pain.
Am I going insane?
Am I losing my mind?
I am dying,
On the inside and out.
I’m losing myself,
In my head full of lies,
In my life full of bleeding
And cutting
And pain.
The tables have turned,
The stars have died out.
In my world full of darkness
And death,
This pain is my own,
And it’s killing me.
This death I embrace,
I need it to take me
Away from the horrors of this life,
And put me away to sleep forever,
So I shall die.
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Submitted by lonely-blue-sheep on January 22, 2022

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