Alive

I want to feel like
I’m actually worth something.
I want to feel like
I’m actually alive.
I want to feel like
I’m actually living and breathing;
I want all this pain to end.
I want all this uncertainty
To blow away like dust in the wind.
I want all this weariness
To dissolve like salt in water.
I want all this darkness
To leave me like ice melting in early spring.
I need these feelings
Of tiredness
And sorrow
And anxiety
And darkness
To leave me now
So I can finally return to the light,
And I can finally be free.