I can’t believe I let me fall again… But we know the falls not for the mundane…

I thought the fall would bring- more destruction from within.
But instead this time around~this fall became homebound.

I swore that I could make it through,
I swore that I would not need you.
But after the poles began  their shift
I realized I was deep-in-shit.

But knew nothing of agreements made,
I only knew that I’d been played.
By every fiddler in the band.
By every kingdom in this land.

But by the time this truth came out,
I had already chosen the difficult route.
 The challenges that you would face-
The setbacks that would set the pace-
Only made you more determined,
to make sure all your lessons learned and—
when the time finally came
You showed me what I needed and —
I thought it was you  that noticed me,
but It isnt ONLY me you see.

You see me for the thingsa I am .
You see me more when things arent planned.
Youn sing to me my hearts one song.
You carry me —
                —not string along.

I once was barely hanging on this crazy lifes merry-go-round.
But just as I was about to fall,
                      along came you
                                        and solved it all.

But in the saving that was to come,
first all parts must come undone.
For in the undoing is where we lie,
And bake ourselfs in our apple pi.

And once we are fully cooked, and nothing has been overlooked.
We will find the sweetest piece of us, as long as we dont second guess.
For if you deny the fruit within
It’s only YOU- you’ve  not forgiven .

So shatter every window,
Tear down every wall.
Breakthrough every barrier,
leave nothing standing at all.
 
Then prepare the land for planting, and gather seeds for soil.
And within the time you work to harvest, you can release your mortal coil.

And finally—be freed from chains—
that have only filled your life with pains.
Release the sadness and the grief—
And acceptance WILL become relief.

And the bonds that tie you to this place,
will soon be nothing but empty space.
Inside the nothingness of all
But don’t forget about the fall.