Jess

 Today way my day of days, having been through the worst times finally wake next to an angel it was truley my day. Everything is perfection but we all know perfection is a myth a poof of smoke. While we thought we were on the up swing we were to happy,gullible foolish to see what was on the horizon. Me, that's what it was me. God damn me be happy let me tear it apart with my bear hands (I've always been great at that) damn who gets hurt. I dont deserve this I dont deserve her. She can cry an beg for to explaine but no just another way to sabotage the one relationship with the one I can see eternity with no. Leave leave now. Tears in eyes she does (WHAT THE F*CK STOP HER WHAT THE F*CK says my heart) even watching her broken heart my pride wouldn't let me go.  Now for the coup de gra another woman in bed when she returns. WHAT THE F*CK. Happiness and forever terrifies me so I always go to the nuclear option. Just think this was the one time I didn't and am forever haunted.