A child became the monster

a child without a mother looking for her face
a make-believe story just in another place
she loved me more than leaving isn't always the case
she chooses the life of freedom in the least compassionate way
a daughter without a mother how will she be raised
the daughter meets her father no longer a child can she stay
she learns what not love is right away
she takes the blows and anger alone shes left to shake
the daughter must now accept the world is an unsafe place
so the daughter has a big brother who hurts her in different ways
a sister so unloved she feels the shame
a sister no longer fearing those who feed her pain
a sister and a brother remain family forgiveness never came
the sister and the daughter two sorrows the same
she was now a young lady carrying the weight and all the blame
the young lady screamed and fought her life she did hate
she found the blade and cut the pain away
she opened her heart in ways she hurt she gave the same
she trusted the darkness it blocked out the day
so once she was used  and left like an unleashed grenade
she begged that God would take her life away
there were no answers the monsters all still near
her father got sick and was no longer there
one monster down so many remained she was no longer a person
she gave forgiveness to the monsters there mostly all dead
she now is the monster left in her head
the sorrow of grief the sorrow of pain
how do you love them they took everything away
why does it hurt the overwhelming pain
the child who loved the monster no longer wants to play
she has three children now who she protects everyday
only in her mind, she fights to want to stay
so lost so upset the glass is poured every day
so sick of the darkness that wraps her heart in every way
the darkness she begged for in to keep her safe
the ramblings of this child now grown who still can't find the faith
the child becomes the mother does she love them enough to stay.