The Everlasting Playlist

The next song begins,
Same as last,
Slowly,
As the song builds
The beat gets louder
And the singer pours her heart out as I wish I could,
But I don’t
The music fades,
the song ends,
There’s a brief moment of silence
And I suck in a shallow breath
Just holding it for a moment
As if my mouth was a dam holding water,
The yelling gets louder and so does my heartbeat

The next song begins
Same as last
Slowly,
I exhale that breath of air I was holding
as the music begins to heal my soul,
Like a band-aid heals a bullet wound
This song is different from the last
This one has no words
The instrumental wraps around me like a baby in a blanket
But somehow protects me from the outside world
Providing me sanctum
But as all songs do
The song ends
The pause returns
Ripping off the healing band-aid,
Destroying my sanctum

The next song begins
Same as last
Slowly,
But suddenly it stopped
I get up to grab my charger
But I realized that the yelling has stopped,
Worry rushes through me
Like one thousand spiders crawling up my back
Each leg resembles a new fear
A new spine-chilling possibility of why
Steadily I walk down the elastic hallway
That stretches with each step
Finally, I made it to the door
Hesitantly I knocked
A voice booms from the other side
Telling me to go away
While my mother's voice yells at him
To not yell at me
I walk away as another argument begins
Their voices start to fade away and
The next song begins
Same
As
Last