Life lessons

Never again
Never for long
Always feel broken
Never truly strong
My love is so pure
But so misguided
There is so much pain
Feels that it will never be subsided
How could I love another, when I care nothing for myself
Maybe forever I should just place my heart in a shelf
Will I ever find someone to be true
Or will I just live forever trying to renew
Everyone says I provide so much safety
But sometimes I would appreciate help greatly
Why is life so damn hard
When can I feel like I’m not behind in the line
I beg and plead for some reprieve
But I never to feel ever relieved
When do I get to chase my dreams
For now I guess that’s just make believe
When will I pay enough for past transgressions
When will it ever be enough of Gods lessons
What more could I possibly give
To get that breath of life I need to really live