A Memory Long Forgotten

A pain
Hidden behind a locked door
One I’d long forgotten was there, in the corner

It drags itself from the crevices of my mind
Settling in my chest
I feel heavier

All this from seeing your face?
I never thought I’d feel this way

And yet seeing your smile makes me reminisce
You used to look at me like that,
Eyes scrunched up as you laugh aloud

And I’m in pain
I never thought I’d love to hear your laugh again

Is it romantic in nature?
No
But the nostalgia leads me to think of different times

Times when I felt your hand in mine
When you’d smile at me
And I thought we were friends

This pain settles in my heart and the pit of my stomach
And I almost wish we could go back
Back to the way it was in the old days

We’re different now
We’re not the same
You left me alone, and I know we’re not friends

“But we could’ve been”
That’s what it says, it whispers
That familiar pain, that longing in my chest
 
And I know it won’t change
And I’ll never see your face again
But that was the choice you made

You made this bed and now I lie in it
And pretend it’s not made of broken promises
And ignore the pain

Lock the door, one more time
Until I forget it’s there
And you’re nothing but a faded memory of someone who means nothing to me