I Wish it did

Contemplating and alone - you ran into my mind
It's been quite awhile - I presumed
Or maybe I haven't let the feeling sinked in
Wondering when will this feeling hits in.

We've been through hard times together,
We've hold each other through good times too.
You held me like you'd hold me forever,
But some things can feel wrong even though they're true.

From everything to nothing at all,
From everyday to never at all,
I should be sad; I should be lonely
Or I should feel sorry for myself

BUT...
I don't care if you found somebody new,
I wouldn't get jealous if you're happy too
I won't feel empty when you'll be gone
And my heart won't even miss you.

Didn't it mean anything?
Didn't it matter after all?
And the worst part of it all...
It's the way it doesn't hurt - when I wish it did.