If I were to write a suicide note
If I were to write a suicide note, I wouldn't do it sober. My reasons for the final curtain call are all emotion and no rational thinking when I'm drunk.
If I were to draft a suicide note, I wouldn't do it sober. I would be secretly thrilled nobody else in my family took this way out so it's still an option. Only one member of a family can commit suicide, that's the rule.
If I were to contemplate a suicide note, I wouldn't do it sober. I'd apologize to everyone I've hurt by my drinking, which is the majority of the people in my life I care about.
If I were contemplating a suicide note, how do I explain this to my parents? How do I explain to them that they didn't fail me? How do I explain this to my brother's eldest, who has serious struggles of their own? I try to be a sounding board. I want to be the non-partisan, neutral party they can come to with anything, and they have come to me with a lot of struggles.
If I were discussing suicide with a sibling's child, I'd admit we have brought it up. More accurately, we have discussed not actually having a plan to kill oneself but a desperate hope that we don't wake up in the morning because life is such a struggle and the weight seems unbearable.
If I were to write a suicide note, I would feel that I robbed someone else of a chance at a final word. I haven't had anyone very close to me commit suicide, but I have had have a few close ones die without warning. And I've always wondered what they would have said, having been given the choice.
If I were to write a suicide note, I would think of the peaceful sleep I would have.
And then, I would think of how horrible everyone else around me would sleep probably from then on.
And I am sad, because I don't feel strong enough.
And I am inspired, because I have enough reasons to be stronger than I think I can be.
And I am anxious because we have a family gathering this weekend and I know everyone will be looking at me, despite there not being any alcohol at the event.
About this poem
This poem is incomplete as my thought process is incomplete.
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Written on September 17, 1921
Submitted by RebelSwan on September 17, 2021
Modified on March 08, 2023
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