Old town that I left

Old town that I left
do I stay away from you
I hear you call me again
What will I decide to do

It is people and the friendships
Tainted, tinted glass
Glazing my eyes, my mind
I'll hide. I can't.

Some names are Anxiety
to the mind upon thought
Embarrassments, Awkwardness
with whom I lost rapport

You saw me growing up
and not growing up at all
pendulum from good to bad
and sometimes nothing more

A tortuous play of my fictions
and of what truly be
Thoughts that factly haunt
more than reality

Perhaps the facts are folly
I've believed worse than is real
To give merit to everything
Might just be overkill

So run into a fray of haze
boldly though for lack of view
The harness of His care
holds me 'loft fall I as I move

This surety at least be crystal truth
as true as I am scared
I think I'll go and see them then
and try that life again