Smiling Again

" Smiling Again "

My life has been nothing but pain,sorrow,regrets and sins,
It's so hard to survive out here these days we are in,
Sometimes it feels everybody loses, nobody seems to win,
I had nowhere else to go, how dare you,all I got is my kin,
Kinda messed up, throw me out my own shit,then say my kids can't come,
I didn't have a choice, but I still need my kids in my life,
Your new man thinks he so tough huh, he better pray I don't come get me some,
He gonna look a whole lot worse than the last guys face you saw, and a knife,
So be prepared, you know you can't keep me from my kids,or all my stuff forever,
That much I know you can feel down deep inside that cold heart,
You know you would have never been, if we weren't meant to be together,
You could have just been honest and said you were a ho,not lie from the start,
Doesn't really matter anymore,I just want my appointed time with my kids,
Starting to feel better now, think I am finally over you,
Done feeling like I gotta Bunch of full water bottles, with no lids,
I know, been there before, remember,sad but it's so true,
Just remember "karma" is a you know what too,it comes really fast,
Does not matter where you go,or what you do,like a thief in the night,
Trust me,it is not gonna be enjoyable,not gonna be a blast,
It's also not someone,or something you can stand and fight,
So take it from me,you can't hide from it my very close friend,
It took a hell of a lot of pain, but now I am ready to  "Smile Again".

         Written by; Joshua Ray Lanphar