Why you hate me

I always wondered why did you hate me , instead of giving me the love you gave everyone else . ?

You always screamed and shout about how I only cared about myself . But Why Did You Hate Me ?

You hated me because when I was molested I told you who did it , your own blood , and flesh ... your own seed ,
You looked me right in my eyes and still didn’t believe me .

You hated me once you noticed the hour glass body I received before I was even a teen ,
Instead of loving me , you abused and belittled me ... why did you hate me ?

You hated me because my head was always held high and I didn’t let anything get in my way , and I still think til this day you told me when I confessed to you what happened to me it was lie, WHY !! WHY DID YOU HATE ME ? Why ?

You hated me because I reminded you of him in so many ways and you couldn’t stand to look at me everyday , he was your own blood and flesh, your first seed ,  but yet you still hated me .

I did everything I could to make you happy , and stand on top . I felt that love you didn’t give me that you gave everybody else that feeling , that feeling I had in my heart felt like every feeling and soul in my body , everything including the pulse in my body , and the beating in my heart, the hurt I was feeling , the feeling would finally stop .  But you still hated me .

I busted my ass , and accepted the abuse and the belittled moments and still took care and looked after you , I once woke up on a school day and cleaned up after you.  But that never got noticed , nothing I do.

I turned my back on someone protecting you , and it never got noticed ... never got a “Asia I appreciate you , Asia I’m proud of you” not a word .. maybe words like “bitch” or I’ll never be shit ... or maybe “ how your life was put on hold for me “ like I was destroying you.

Now that you’re gone , I can never get a chance to ask you everything I always wanted to ask you , my pride wasnt put to the side . It was the hate I knew you had for me , you never wanted to hear me out or understand me . YOU ALWAYS HATED ME .

You hated me and I never knew how could you really do that to your own blood , flesh ... YOUR SONS SEED .  I just wanted to always know WHY DID YOU HATE ME. ?