Analysis of Rejection

You should be blinded by shame
For all your rejection
It hurts me so bad
That Ill never be your number 1
I understand your reasons
Or at least say that I do
But really inside
I am just as lost as you
Youll never understand my pain
the rejection that you bring
You cant understand something
That you have never been through
I try to accept your reasoning
Though my heart breaks in half
I know for sure there just excuses
You think you chose the right path
but i know inside how wrong you are
and how i could never  look at things like you do
My feelings never seem to  die
and whats worse is still I'd do anything for you
but still its a promise you will never make to me
but as sad as this is loving you is inevitable
trying to pretend that i dont would make me
just as fake as you