Analysis of Doesn't matter in the end

I have experienced more than what i have needed, I've been through moments much worse than the little problems you would face throughtout your entire life.
The trauma, still leaves my brain sick
The anger, the sadness and happiness have all damaged my brain,
I am a prisoner of my own mind, forced to believe these things are bad or good because they make my brain feel pain, or pleasure.
Cellar Door, the most beautiful combination of words
It's only beautiful because of my mind
I am trapped in the membrane of my brain, the endless possibilities, that are thoughts lock me in.
I am inside staring at my Cellar Door, and it's so beautiful because it is the only thing i can see, the endless possibilities of what is behind it.
I have had terrible and wonderful things happen that were not needed
Because once I opened my Cellar Door all I found on the other side was me trapped inside.

I have experienced more than what i have needed, Knowing made me feel like the endless possibilities are only endless, unless you reach the END.