Analysis of 40somethings

I'm                                   totter,
         on              teeter-
                    a

UP,
Somedays              Somedays
                                                   DOWN,

Soaking
                   in
                            self-
                                        evaluation
                                                                 deep,
                                                                              down,
                                                                                             profound…

Am I all I can be?  Can I be more?  Am I enough?  Should I be more?
I'm already mid-way.
MID-WAY! OH NO!
My heart misses a summersault and crashes into a fence,
My brain frantically over talks,
I've no defense!

No
            longer
                              soaking
                                                 but
                                                              drowning…

Have I done everything I should have, anything I could have?
I'm I truely all that I seem? What's left? What goals? What dreams?

I'm   on
              a                                       i  can't
                     teeter-  Totter  and                 get
                                                                             OFF!

I   Hang
              On
                     For
                            Dear
                                        Life,
                                                  Too  Terrified,
                                                                                To
                                                                                      let myself

just
                                                                                                          F
                                                                                                              A
                                                                                                                 L
                                                                                                                    L.