Analysis of Lost in my thoughts

3 years ... Wasted time
Cant say it was all bad , it put me back up on my grind
Done paid off that 40 racks in fines
I done lost my mind,
Plenty days n nights i done cried
Thought i had love, but was completely blind
Said u my friend, heard wat i told u thru the vine

Broken spirits, Mental Visits, maybe i should recreate my plan
Aint no beach without the Sand
Aint no success without sum bands
Not worrying bout no shoots till i buy sum land
Self driven with no helpin hands
The shit i been through will make u fold ur hands

Lord please help me to get over this
So mad i grit my teeth n ball my fist
If u dealt with a lotta pain then u gone feel my drift
Heart been heavy like the clouds when it mist
Feel like a tumor on my brain or a cyst

People play in ya face like u a clown
The shit i swam thru another wud of drown
Super sayen powers like im on a nimbus cloud
Its a drake beat ur heart love the sound
Aint no loyalty or no friend up here i done found
Aint no rap this is poetry my soul too proud

Payed my karma in full when i hit the ground
God done saved me for praising him out loud
Did it by myself never had a crowd
Now i bow my head when im feelin doubt
Not a boy but im the scout
Did it for the pay never needed clout