Analysis of A letter 2 you

I like wondering if you thinking about me instead of knowing
The more I wonder the more it fades away the more I know I feel you
You might be a twin flame  
the more I’m away from u the more I feel empty
Like I’m missing something
i never really gave you much you were always the giver
even though I messed up
you did to and I still forgive you
I had to learn to forgive you even tho I messed up first
I feel like I would never be enough for you I blame society
but you were everything to me despite the looks
I never felt this way about anyone
thou I never even let anyone that close to my heart
I know it didn’t seem like it my quiet n shyness  
my heart pumping out my chest writing this
I’m scared to tell others how I feel
I rather them not know
i think about you at times I don’t even want to
I don’t know if it be good or bad
I tried to bury our memories
the only thing I think about when u pop up In my mind
 are u thinking of me to
in different states so far apart so long without talking
Life moving forward more responsibilities
Can u sleep  ?
Am I easy to forget ?  
Did I mean nothing  to you or did you fall out of love w me
You probably never even loved me
you wondered if I ever wrote you a letter
I always thought you were charming
even though you was writing letters from a place you did not wanna be
I did write you it was atleast 12 pages of pity
how sorry I was and how much you meant to me
I feel like I owe you this letter
you may never get to read it
 I guess this is for my own health
You never knew how much you meant to me
I guess I didn’t realize either until it was to late
you have options
you have the family you deserve
all of this was meant
it was meant for us to part ways
we both needed our blessings
I don’t know why I’m writing this
 I never wanted to be in your way
 I just wanted to be understood