Analysis of Missing you was my sin

Missing u was my sin...
Hey it's me again trapped in my sins
Left behind crushed by your thunders as I have always been
 My beloved trustful sun takes the road leading me up to your sky
blue, wide and warm, Far, far away trembling from my fears of u gone
here's my third storm..
 I wasn't that child anymore,
the one mama's left behind her door
 In a burning fire out of the hell
 to the middle of a monster's house hall
 In that scary night I mentioned before When wasn't any light to enlighten the same hall
 Would've had u as my sun
my precious light to turn the monsters to angels but angels with gun
That gun with both of your hands on Hiding the ugly truth behind the pressure u made up to kill my will
To burn my skill
 Making me ill
Taking all that u can steal
 Leaving me behind your door With zero reason or proves making u mine again Lead me to believe, your guts been always full
for not making me your fool
 Have u ever heard of a girl in a road
 on a back of a horse with many swords u taught her to hold
 Have u even seen the red flags u invented in her to made up her sins
to accuse her with your flaws, reflecting the hybrid u been
Now u got what you desired,
do u want from this girl a little bit more to make her tired
All she did is asking your hand to help her stand
 But instead u made up your mind closed your heart used your head to get yourself a place u know in it u'll be always admired

Why would people be this awful when they tend to fight u for what they wanted u to be and get mad for being as they required

Backfired of what u committed

eating me up till u lose,
till u lose what u always knitted...