Analysis of Feelings

You  gave a touch of color to my colorless life.
first time i saw you,
I got caught up in the ineffable charm of your bright innocent face in a moment.
I saw your two innocent calm eyes,
But you don't saw me even for once.
I didn't have the luck to see your smile, the squinting.
But I was not angry,
I don't have the power to be angry with you.
But!!  But I was sad to think that why I did not find you earlier?
Why didn't you come in my life before!!
Why didn't I get a chance to see your beautiful face before!!
Your body was burnt to ashes in front of my eyes.
I couldn't save you,
What is my fault!!
You came before me when there is no life left in your body.
The first time I saw you, you were dead.
Your body was covered with white cloth.
I had to burn your dead body,
This is my job, my profession.
But the feeling I have in my heart for you,
It will live on as long as I live.