Analysis of Hold Ever So Proudly

Burdens and traumas hold me so proudly,
Accompanied by the emptiness of staying, feeling but not realizing the stealing of peace.
Screaming but I feel speechless: grab me I am drowning.
Feeling my heart pounding,
I hold you so proudly.
Traumas are what we are made of.
I wish things were different, the difference of sameness.
I dream of the western winds
Where the light of the moon and the darkness of night collide
With the moving of waters, the suffocating thoughts of drowning begin.
Grab my heart while I drown.
Why haven’t I been found?
Stand-alone, rejected, trading joy for protection.
The pounding of truths finding the unfound
Wistfulness of denial with the fear of speaking and living
Assuming it won’t be good enough.
Our freedom is promised yet a promise to be broken.  
Holding on to my traumas so dearly with the rejection of no return.
Holding ever so dearly to the melancholy of existence,
Moving mountains under water,
Maintaining the power to breathe.
Grasp this and find the layers of existence.
My soul is jealous of my body to trade peace for protection.
My heart pounding and pounding.