Analysis of Inspired By Sadness and Regret

Mum called me sick
She said I'm too slow
I don't know if I should feel weak
Or just go with the flow

Week by week
The insults become stronger
But word by word
I don't know if I can hold it in any longer

My mind and body
Are becoming like the person they control
With self conflicts
And my own personal troll

I write and write
Hoping one day another girl reads this
So she understands she isn't alone
In the midst of her crisis

My mind wants to do its own thing
Just like the person it controls
But gladly so does my heart
But I'm not sure anymore

I don't know when this
Group of people will realize
That I have my own dreams
And yes , they do come with a price

I hate growing up
All I knew was that I was 14 for a long time
And I wanted to be 16
And feel 16 all the time

Now I'm 16 and I truly
Truly do regret
All those years I lost
Years of no regret

I wish I could feel like that again
Feel clueless and easy to blame
No fights and cusses
No bit of shame

I came to realize
Time is beyond control
You can't store it in a jar
But you can use it all

I found out that life is short
Or whatever you wanna say
So go ahead and do all that crazy shit
And live to fight another day