Analysis of where i'm from

I am form a family thats hard to love
Kind nice and love but
It doesn’t always feel nice
Lots of pain throughout the years
It’s been tough being all alone
Feels cold, feels lost, feels scary

I been in so much pain but I always have a smile on
Im the light of the darkness
Im bright on the outside
On the inside I have gone out

Mind has been broken like the family
Ever since he left, mom fell into a deep pit
Brother left with wife, sister went with boyfriend
Other sister didn’t care what happened
Family is broken, is falling apart day by day
I tried to fix it but it seems unfixable

Past few days it feels like it’s getting better
Slowly but surely hope to see us be happy again
Hope to see him again has been years since he left
I been hurting badly but soon it will go away
I hope.