Why???

throughout my trials and tribulations i can't seem to focus my mind. i cant seem to realize that there is more to it than this. the needing, the wanting, the if's, and's and but's about things, but i dont care about those. i cant care. because only one thing remains in my mind....Why???

why couldnt you have just let me hold you when no one else would touch you?

why couldnt you just let me be there next to you when you were alone and no one seemed to want to be there?

why couldnt you just let me see you when no one else seemed to know that you existed?

why couldnt you just have let me hear you when you yelled out and no one answered your screams?

why couldnt you have just let me in, when everyone else was trying to get out?

why did you shoot me down when i was the only one putting you up?

why did you hurt me when i soothed your every pain?

why couldnt you have saw yourself the way i saw you?

why couldnt you have believed my words wich were from the heart, and yet you believed those wich were but a mere figment of imagination, stupidity and lies?

is this really how you wanted to leave me, alone and in the dark and forever wondering why?

i'll live the rest of my life til the day i die...

wondering and pondering to myself about the answer to my own eternal mystery........Why???