Too Loud

I can not hear,
 Over the noise,
 What is felt,
 Isn't felt by choice,
 Focus, control,
 Why am I,
 The last to know,
 Is there a joke,
 I just did not get,
 Am I a result,
 Of a losing bet,
 I can't hear,
 Its much too loud,
 While inside my head,
 Thoughts crowd,
 Maybe I am nieve,
 Maybe learn too late,
 Good things come,
 To those who wait,
 Its not my place,
 To have a say,
 When I do not know,
 Where to belong anyway................BAD-Mc..<3