No, I will try till I die .........

Daily feeling pushed aside sometimes I even cried,
But today I deside to pick up my pride even if there maybe another bumpy ride, no, I will till I die must do my best knowing I really tried even when I had to swollow my pride, every time I think of how I am not there and my child cried I really wonder why, there where times I wondered why I hadn't died. My friend shared a song still I rise and I broke her heart seeing disappointed tears  in her eyes.......... I must get up not just to rise but to remove the tears from their eyes no more selfish protend pride but the real drive, my lifes passionate hopes dreams and inner pride.
Forgive me for I to lied about my untold pride. Dd