Courtnie McKern 1976 (Council Bluffs, Iowa)

I sit in silence consumed by the darkness, awaiting test results that are keeping me up at night. I stare at my coffee cup that is giving me solace as I slowly sip the brown elixir. Inhaling the alluring aroma that is sustaining my ailing mind at the moment. I’m trying my best to ignore the Indians dancing in my head, telling me to give into my hopelessness. Telling me that my time is coming to an end. That cancer has come knocking on my door once again. Like an old friend come to take me away on a far away trip. But cancer is not my friend. It is a monster with a creepy grin waiting for it’s next victim. I push these thoughts to the back of my mind and continue to stare into space. As my mind continues to race, a single tear falls slowly from my face into my coffee. Then another and another. Until my eyes are like an overflowing fountain of complete and utter despair. I don’t even try to stop the tears as I grasp my coffee cup for dear life. I sit this way for what feels like an eternity, until I see the light creeping from outside. Not much longer before I get the call from the Dr. So I continue to wait in silence hoping for good news. It has to be good news.

About this poem

The negative thoughts that consume your mind when waiting for test results.

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Written on April 15, 2024

Submitted by Courtnie.mckern on April 18, 2024

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Courtnie McKern

Born in Council Bluffs, Iowa. Went to St. Albert high school. Received an associate degree from Iowa Western. Now lives in Bellevue, Ne with 2 children and a boyfriend. more…

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  • Courtnie.mckern
    Thank you very much
    LikeReply29 days ago
  • LatinX
    I wish you the very best. Very well written
    LikeReply29 days ago
  • EdwinRayTanguma
    I don’t know why this one made me think of a 30 year old man having a better memory than a 10 year old boy…I personally used to hate 3 mile runs…But I read it helped a certain person overcome his alcohol addiction after a certain even which did not take place a few months prior to his dui…And what might this have to do with a certain 10 acres of land in Texas…Who can say…When I was young my liver had not problem with alcohol…But after my bout with Tylenol my liver has never been the same…And they told me I had Hep C…Ih well…I wonder how much more my liver can take one I start drinking straight strong black coffee without cream nor sugar???Only time will tell…Coffee cures all ailments… 
    LikeReply1 month ago


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