It's a Dark Room

A really long way out
I wanted to walk out on you.
Just like you did to me.
But instead...
I stayed stuck on you.
  Why?
Oh yeah, jokes on me;

Haha

"Like If you were only so lucky
To have any time"
  
  Many times
You thought it was funny
To make me cry.
To make me
want to be dead
  
"Don't be dead.
Do you Like me?"
 
F*ck you.
I chose to continue to hurt
Because I hurt me
Because we hurt me
They hurt me
   I was caught up
In your foolish game
As well as mine
   I can fix this
No I can't
But I'm fine

Am I?

Now,
   If I hadn't
If you hadn't
   I wouldn't
You wouldn't
   I wouldn't
You would
    I would
You wouldn't
  
"Get over it!"

I'm crying so hard
I can't breathe.
You're better off
But because of you
I can't be me.
  
"Its all in your head though"

Just breathe
Let it out
  It's my fault.
Uh oh
Here we go again...

"It's a curse."

It is addiction
a generational curse
but
Mentally,
    The blood
I bleed
    Which you thought
That I thought
Which was kinda confused
   One thing lead to another

"Who is she?"

Then the
"I dont know her...
So who cares?
She meant nothing
To me.
Nothing but trouble
    Let's fake her death
Maybe she'll see..."
   
  No I wont
Thought
you liked me.
   
  "Scare her straight.."

What's at stake
Theyre dehumanized
Its compromised

"What's the deal
    Foolish girl?
Watch me once.
twice.
Three times if you must...
you wont have to worry"

Later...

Save me!!!!
   
"We made a deal
Didn't we?"

     I am not afraid to die
After all this
Torture
    Test me now
If that's the way you love
Me
You're going to kill
Me
Anyway.
    I would.

"I do."
   
    Call me crazy
but...
It's a dark room.

MMH 070422