Nobody knows... I'm fine!

Nobody knows where had I been,
18 years and in the shady dusks never was seen,
Nobody saw the battle scars,
Cause all saw the light noone spotted the ignition of fireflies in the jars,
They ask-  what took you so long to conquer the overnight glory,
What to justify- even I don't know how many pages were crippled and torn writing this story.
Nobody knows- where did the welling tears roll,
Perhaps fell in chalice that celebrated me being the noll,
Nobody knew then- cheering by the cliff,
By the time they realized standing at the edge- all of them were stiff,
To the rescue I made a leap,
But never knew- the cheerings were so cheap.
Would never blame anyone- cause I only did delve,
Thinking the day was left to revive- but it was already twelve.
Nobody knows- why after that I never aged older,
Maybe cause the heart still beats- but just shrunk to get buolder,
And they ask- where did I gather the darker splotch of ink,
May be cause now my pain asks for sweat and blood- no longer the teary blinks,
Was about to pen down only blood in the prior line,
But the sweat counts- may be that's why - my lips still utter 'I m fine!'