In search

The unknown
Unable to touch and grab it
I plunge into despair
Unable to understand it, I slowly loose my mind
I seek answers
I seek meenings
But all I am giving, is emptiness
I  am a man rule by my thoughts,
And my thought rule me
I fear the unknown
So the unknown rules me
 my inabilities to find myself in it
Brings me doubt and fear,
As I seek it , I drown,
Slowly drowning in an ocean of despair,
As I try swimming and getting close to the surface
I get carried by the wave
I am cornerd
I am speechless
I am scared
I seek
I need
Without knowledge I am nothing
I am thoughts
And thoughts are me
Without them I am nothing
I seek clarification ,I seek it
Help help!
I am drowning
No one answered
No one is there
No one cares
This is it
Is this my salvation
As I Drown
I mourned
I
Am
And I seek meaning