far but still close

four years apart we are;
10000 miles apart we are; yet far but still close
your innocent smile that dazzle my whole life
your big round eyes
your well built body
I was drawn to you
but you were already drawn to others
6years fast forward ,
I was here in your city
Awe struck by your laughter, I was frozen
TO match your standard, I worked from dusk till dawn;
As if being connected instantly I became someone to you
someone who could laugh with you
someone who could cook for you
someone who could talk with you
But not someone you could ever held
your hand still holding other person hand ,
HOW FOOLISH AM I ,you could ever held my hand
when I was getting far away you realize your feeling
my absence tremble you
my absence make you yearn for me
On that auspicious day you confess your feeling
I was moved to tears ,
Not by happiness but by sadness
sadness of you leaving me
sadness of not being your first kiss
but you can be mine first kiss
sadness of remembering your days when you were with others
you pushed me behind wall
yearning for a kiss
but how could I ,when your lips already kiss others multiple times
how could I, when your hand already held others multiple times
how could I forget my yearning of decade for you
it is not the pain that you give me
But my deep and possessive love
I explained wholeheartedly to you ,my possessive love
 you are a free bird ,
how could I cage you in my possessive love
I rejected you ,along with my decade love
you were devastated but has still hope
I saw you multiple times in my office  
I thought you had business but your gaze was fixed on me
babe how could I be with you when you are sun and I am the moon
just like day and night cannot be together
we cannot be together
blame my selfishness or my insecurities
that's why I was scared to fall in love
but fall far you 10 years ago
babe I wish when we meet again
there will be no boundaries
I left you blaming that it was your short infatuation with me
but I never expect you to wait for me for 3 years
hence fast forward to 2 years I am explaining it to our 3 month old son
I still remember the day when we had our first kiss both cried like there was no tomorrow;
your eye full of yearning and promises
that was a day when I released love is really magical