IT'S NOT MY BIRTHDAY!

IT'S NOT MY BIRTHDAY!
The Month is same , the Year isn't
The Date is same , the Day isn't
It's not my birthday
It's been 17years since my birthday
But , it's not my birthday!

The last day of my 16th and the
first day of my 17th , aren't different!
I am the same me with the same mentality ,
same emotions , same positions , situations , fears ,
anxieties , tirings , happiness ,
With the same loss of people ,
listening to the same taunts
being haunted by the same memories
And probably , this only day won't fix
every running things on my mind ,
won't erase all the nightmares!

Don't just be busy making me feel most beautiful ,
greatest , honoured , special , blessed this day
coz i don't know how to endure all the ignorance all by myself , continuing to become strangers again
When the day's over , i don't how to be happy the other day ,
how to tolerate all the torments for the
rest of my 17 until it's 18 again!
When i know by the end of this night ,
You'll behave the same again
for the next year ; not having connections
and the giggles as before!

Why it isn't like you people be wishing and praying for me throughout the year and not just this one day?
Why can't you make me feel special everyday?
Why I've to suffer while you'll pretend to be the
closest one for just one day?
Why can't you have the same affections everyday?

DON'T WISH ME TODAY FOR I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE CURSED EVERYDAY!

IT'S NOT MY BIRTHDAY!
The Month is same , the Year isn't
The Date is same , the Day isn't
It's not my birthday
It's been 17years since my birthday
But it's not my birthday!
-sann